Please don't judge...I am considering having an affair.....?

strictly for physical reasons....I love my husband ( dont judge me ) and love my kids,....but in the last 3 YEARS.....we have had less than 10 times. None in the last 9 months....I amd 14 years younger than my husband....he blames it on being tired .....etc.......I'm not overweight....slim and pretty...he is the overweight one.....we don't sleep in the same bed alone the same room. I do love him as a person, a spouse and father, but to be my age ( 30! ) and celibate is a sad thought at this age to deal with the rest of my life. Please forgive me....if you want to slander me or judge me go elsewhere. I happened to be very focused and emotionally deprived so I SERIOUSLY doubt I would gather emotions frjm and affair. In fact I guarantee it. I'm like a robot I guess. Any thoughts? If you are here to judge go elsewhere. I need REAL help.....not sarcasm and jokes